Yes, we thawed our last 2 frozen embryos in an attempt to have another baby. These embryos are from the same cycle that Tiny came from, a June 2010 IVF cycle.
We felt really good about it all, and Shayne was sure there was another spirit that we needed to add to our family. Although I felt good about it, I also wasn't sure how it was all going to turn out. I didn't feel strongly one way or the other about what would happen.
So, we went forward with the FET. We thawed them and did a transfer, which didn't go quite as smoothly as the one with Tiny, but wasn't as bad as the June 2010 fresh cycle transfer. The embryos thawed satisfactorily. They weren't as amazing as with Tiny, but they didn't collapse and look terrible like the FET we attempted in Nov. 2009. I have a pic of the 2 embryos we thawed I will add later. So, we were cautiously optimistic.
Things felt like they were going in the right direction for the first 2 days, but then all the normal symptoms I had had with my other successful transfers just kinda stopped.
And 2 weeks later the HPT's came back negative.
We were very sad and discouraged and very much questioning why it didn't work. We still don't have the answers to all of this and we aren't sure what our next step is.
We were so sure this was going to work that now it hasn't we are wondering if there really is another spirit for our family.
Thankfully, I'm not nearly as devastated as I was with the failed June 2010 IVF attempt before we got pregnant with Tiny. I've been able to keep myself from falling into a depression, which is a huge blessing. I think this is because I'm able to keep myself busy and thankful for the 2 amazing miracles we already have in our family.
It's hard to be angry and upset for very long when we have been so blessed to have the miracle babies that we have.
So, while we are sad and would very much love to have another baby...we are very grateful for the 2 beautiful wonderful children we have been blessed with.
And who knows...maybe in time we'll feel like the Lord still does want us to add to our family.
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